After a rather long hiatus, I am back!
With so much to wrap up since my last post, I will fill you in on the good news first :)
As I wrote in a previous post, I was enrolled in 3 summer class and I am happy to report my hard work paid off and I got an A in each class. (Side thought: I wish all accomplishments where as easy as that… as in working hard and getting a letter grade for your efforts. Judging if you are on the right track in life might be a little easier this way…)
Continuing with the craziness that is the end of summer, Josh’s family from Arizona came for a visit in the beginning of August. It was so awesome to spend time with them! This of course included meals out and a Giants game to boot. In that, my downward spiral of eating pretty much whatever I wanted, began here. To no fault of anyone but my own, I used it as an excuse… that snowballed…
On September 1st, Josh and I went on a week long 1st year anniversary cruise to Key West, The Grand Cayman, and Jamaica. Needless to say, the ease of getting horrendously bad/delicious food was at my fat fingertips, so it quickly added up. I was sunburned for the whole trip so taking advantage of the ships free gym to work out was not the first thing on my mind.
A day after coming home from our cruise, we set out for the Carmel-by-the-sea and Monterey were we visited our wedding site, a year and a day later. We also had the pleasure of eating (with our puppies!) at the same restaurants where our rehearsal dinner and reception where held. Snuggling cozy in the sand with a hot white mocha, jeans and sweaters, watching the sunset, it was a magical 3 days of reliving the best day of my life with my one and only. Smiling, soul warming, goodness.
It was a seriously amazing 2week escape from reality… that came to a halt on Saturday, September 15th when I realized what the next day would bring.
In keeping with the good news, not to keep you in further suspense…
I completed The Giant 5k Race on September 16, 2012, in 45minutes and 24 seconds!
It was one of the hardest things I have ever done in my life. I can honestly say I don’t think I could have done it without Josh by my side… sometimes literally pulling on my arm to make sure we met our goal time.
Thankfully it was a COLD San Francisco 8am morning with the fog settled in like a blanket on the city. With that on my side, I actually did great the first part of the race, clocking the first 1.5miles in 21minutes. It was the second half that got me.
As one would expect, I was breathing pretty hard that second half. We were about half a mile from the finish line, coming down the embarcadero on our way into the Giants stadium. Although I knew we would end IN the Giants stadium, I was hoping the finish line would be right in front of us so I could be done and over with this race… no beans.
In a huff of exhaustion and frustration, I started walking.
I could hear the cheering from the run organizers telling me the finish line was “RIGHT THERE!”
LIARS! NO IT WASN’T! I DON’T SEE IT! I wanted to give up.
I fast walked with an elderly woman (who would have otherwise beat me…) she looked at me and said, “YOU GO GIRL, YOU CAN DO IT!”
I can seriously cry now just thinking about this random act of kindness. Other runners may have gotten frustrated, but it seriously touched my soul. She saw how bad I was struggling and in a last stitch effort, she offered what she could… words of encouragement. Thank you, stranger.
A FLOOD of emotions came rushing in.
This is the day I have been anticipating for 4 months. My legs are like JELL-O. I didn’t make my weight-loss goal. I AM A FAILURE. I haven’t blogged in over a month. I should have trained harder. I am so touched by her kindness.
I am ugly sobbing. I can’t catch my breath. Josh comes back to make sure I’m ok, and through my tears, we run as fast as we can into the stadium.
THIS. THIS is what I was waiting for.
A HUGE finish line banner, crowds of people, our picture on the huge jumbotron.
We finish strong.
We cross the finish line. 45 minutes, 24 seconds. WE RAN OUR GOAL TIME!
One more piece of happy news! I am officially in the 220’s! Which brings me to the not-so-awesome, definitely-need-to-work-on-that part…
I still weight 229.1.
Although I am 8 pounds lighter than I was 100 days ago… I am 39.1 pounds shy of my goal when starting this blog. I knew going into this journey that loosing 47.1 pounds was lofty goal, but I didn’t think I would have missed that mark that bad.
Enough with the negative! These past 100 days have taught me way more than focusing on that stupid (still important) number.
This is not over. This is a journey I will be on for the rest of my life. What I have learned these past 100 days will stick with me forever I wouldn’t change that for the world.
1) I have ran 2, 5K’s in the past 3 months. I would have NEVER thought that would even be a REMOTE possibility, even as of this past February. I have learned to love running. Guess what self, I am capable of running without dying like I thought would mean certain death in high school.
2) 8 pounds = 1 gallon of water. A gallon of “water”, or àfatß, is no longer on my body.
3) Vacations are not an excuse to get off the wagon. It’s an opportunity to show off your healthy eating skills in public.
4) Whenever I need a word of advice or to tell me to put the Snickers down, I know I can always call my best girl friends to help me through and I am forever grateful.
5) I married the most perfect man on the planet. My rock.
6) I have an obsession with food that I can control.
7) I do not need soda in my life.
8) I can wear a bikini if I want to and look damn fine doing it. Fuck you.
9) I love my body. I really do. I want to make it a perfect for me.
10) Last but not least… I am even more inspired. Finishing that race and being around those Giant people, gah!! Invigorating! I want to train hard enough to do a 10K without batting an eye.
Which is a prefect segway to my next topic… RE-EVALUATING: I have new goals!
Hopefully I will be more disciplined with this blog so that you can follow me to my ultimate goals which are as follows:
1) 175 by College Graduation day, May 11, 2013 (*54.1 pounds in <7months*)
2) Run a 30 minute 5K
3) 10K by July 4th, 2013
I will STILL be doing this without supplements, so please no solicitations here. I realize it may take me longer, but I need to do this by myself. This is my addiction and I need to learn how to deal with it on my own.
I will also be competing in more 5k’s along the way, suggestions of races in the greater Sacramento area would be lovely! :) I would like to run a 30 minute 5k before graduating to a 10k, so I have 10 months to shave 15minutes off my current time.
I cannot wait to see what the next 7 months, 8 months, 9 months, YEAR will have in store, but I hope the motivation does not waiver.
I CAN DO THIS!! I CAN BE GIANT!!
Thank you all for reading, following and supporting me!!
(Homework and school are still my #1 priority when it comes to what I am going to write first at my computer, but I will keep you updated as much as I possibly can. Hopefully not saving it all for one huge #tldr post ;)
[Here goes SOMETHING!]